("`-''-/").___..--''"`-._ `6_ 6 ) `-. ( ).`-.__.`) (_Y_.)' ._ ) `._ `. ``-..-' _..`--'_..-_/ /--'_.' ,' (((' (((-((('' (((( K R I S T E N' S C O L L E C T I O N _________________________________________ WARNING! This text file contains sexually explicit material. If you do not wish to read this type of literature, or you are under age, PLEASE DELETE THIS FILE NOW!!!! _________________________________________ Scroll down to view text -------------------------------------------------------- This work is copyrighted to the author © 2010. Please don't remove the author information or make any changes to this story. All rights reserved. Thank you for your consideration. -------------------------------------------------------- The Letters Of A Trained Slut by Art S Healing (address withheld) *** By means of a very detailed letter to her psychiatrist, a young girl describes how she became sex addict- with some guidance from her family, her brothers friends, and some dogs. After being repeatedly raped, she learned to eventually like it through her father's manipulation. She was such a little nymph from such a young age, and grew to love fucking and orgasms so much, that it would seem impossible to rape her. At age nine, she found that wasn't necessarily true, and she loved it. (Mm+/g, ped, nc, rp, inc, asian, beast, ws) *** Note: Read author's notes at the end of the story. *** Part One: Maybe You CAN Rape The Willing By means of a very detailed letter to her psychiatrist, a young girl describes how she became sex addict- with some guidance from her family, her brothers friends, and some dogs. After being repeatedly raped, she learned to eventually like it through her father's manipulation. She was such a little nymph from such a young age, and grew to love fucking and orgasms so much, that it would seem impossible to rape her. At age nine, she found that wasn't necessarily true- and she loved it. I am following your advice since you're my psychiatrist. If you really think that writing some of the things I briefed you on before concerning my sex life will help our future sessions, then I'll try and make it as vivid and realistic to my memories as I can. And you wanted me to write this down as detailed as possible, and why I consider myself a trained slut, so I will do that too. I guess I can see how it will be "therapeutic" for me, as you put it, and how it will also give you a chance to do a more detailed analysis on me. But I have to wonder if you really just want horn-dog material. So then where to begin. My daddy and my two brothers, David, who was four years my senior, and Kevin was two years younger than me, had been fucking me hardcore since I was five. Although daddy bragged to me that he used to take my little brother, when I was three, and made me suck his little baby prick. Then he held him up to me and wormed his tiny boner into my slit-mound, and moved him back and forth, although I have no memories of that. Hey doc, are you choking your chicken to this letter yet, or are you taking it slow? Just kidding- I think. You wanted me to write down my first "real and vivid memory" concerning sexuality, so I guess we should start the real stuff there. It was back when I was five and we were on the way home from my mother's funeral with my brothers sitting on both sides of me in the back seat, my older brother in the seat, and me and my little brother were in our car seats. We were sad and weren't really talking- just watching the scenery of the long, winding road that led to our country house. Finally daddy spoke up. He sniffed the air in a silly, exaggerated way and said that he smelled pee-pee and wanted to know which one of us did it. The boys said that it wasn't them, so my daddy nodded his head like a detective who just solved the big case, "Mm-hmm, I should have known who it was. Girls are weaker than boys- she can't help herself, she's only a dumb-ass girl." Only I didn't piss either. Daddy told the boys to take my panties from under my dress and toss them up to him so he could smell them and find out if it was me. They snickered, and awkwardly grabbed around under my funeral dress, fiddling with my little cunny as they did. I was giggling and wiggling at that point myself. Then they finally got my little white cotton panties off and tossed them to daddy as he ordered. He inhaled them deeply for a little while, then declared that it wasn't me, and that he must have been mistaking, and maybe I hadn't peed after all. Then he shove my panties into his jacket pocket instead of giving them back and adjusted his rearview mirror. "Wait a minute," my daddy said. "I do smell it after all. Boys, take the seatbelt off her car seat and lift up her dress. I think she just now went pee-pee." By now our mournful moods were beginning to elevate as we enjoyed this once forbidden naughtiness. We were all rather lighthearted as they raised my pretty little dress up so high that it almost covered my line of my sight, then my brothers giggled more like little girls then little boys. Daddy adjusted his mirror again and said, "Look at her funny little boobies. You know boys, if you lick a girl's booby-buttons, sometimes you can taste stuff. Good stuff- but you have to lick them the way a doggy licks stuff, or you can suck on them- remember David? Like when you used to watch mommy let Kevin and your slutty whore of a sister suck on her booby buttons back when they were babies. Go on boys, get to it... lick and suck." As they did, daddy kept talking. "Mommy let the babies do that because mommy was a horny slut, and so she liked it. She got off on it. You all used to suck on them too, David, and I know you loved it. Hell, even I'd suck on them. And all of us loved the taste too, or else we wouldn't have wanted to suck on them all the time. It's because they tasted so good is why. "Remember how your little brother used to cry sometimes until mommy let him suck on her tit buttons, David? Do you remember the smile on mommy's face when your brother and sister sucked on her. That's because she was a horny cum-slut. I bet she's in heaven right now getting her hot little titties sucked on by an angel or two. You can also lick like a doggy- not just suck like a baby." It felt so damn good- in a ticklish sort of way. I squirmed about and belly laughed as daddy talked and they switched back and forth between licking and suckling my nipples. My arms flailed around, or braced on the edge of the car seat. They may as well have been giving me belly farts for as hard as I was laughing. "See? The little whore loves it, just like mommy. Little cunt- look at her laugh." Daddy couldn't let it end there. "To save some time boys," he said, "why don't you check your sister to see if she is wet down there in her silly little thing while you licky-suckie on her little boobies. Touch her pee- pee place." The boys followed his instructions and started toying with my cunny, which drove me crazy. It felt so good. Daddy kept telling them to feel all over it. "Is it wet or dry?" he asked. David, my older brother of four years said that it was wet. "I see," said daddy. "Maybe she did go piss. Hey, see if she's ticklish down there while you're at it- 'cuz I've always wondered. I bet she is since she's a horny little whore." They tickled at my pussy while they sucked and licked at my nipples, and I just opened my legs in a wide V for them, knees up and spread in my car seat as I fidgeted about. "See, she's nothing but a whore- a little slut- just like her mommy, or she wouldn't like it so much. What a little cum-craving horny bitch." Then daddy had them hold my legs open really wide- straight out to the sides. I felt like a wishbone as my brothers spread my legs so far apart over the sides of my car seat. I was opened up all the way and felt so giddy. Here I was, virtually naked, except for my bunched up dress now fixed at neck level, and my shoes and socks. I felt so exposed and so vulnerable. I was very aroused, although to me at the time, it was simply a curious, extremely enjoyable feeling that I didn't want to end. Daddy told them to see if they could poke their fingers up inside my "silly looking thing" and see if I was wet up inside too. As they explored my girl part, I watched them with a grin and relaxed as the pleasure waves rode through me like a sexual surf. Then he had them describe how it felt. I don't remember which of my brothers said it, but one of them said it was warm and gushy, as various little fingers wiggled their way into my tiny little girl cunny- all the way up to my hymen. My daddy laughed and continued to encourage them. "I guess your little cunt of a sister is a cocksucking slut-whore after all, and that's good, because that's what she wants to be," daddy nodded and he said, "Isn't it, baby? Daddy loves little slut-whores best of all, so it's good that you love this. You're a goddamned whore, and daddy wouldn't love you anymore if you weren't one. Neither would your brothers. We'd all wish you were dead like mommy if you didn't enjoy this- you worthless cunt. "You love this and you want more because you get off on this shit, don't you, you little bitch? You're just a fucking horny cum-bag, aren't you honey?" I nodded with a smile, not understanding what I was exactly agreeing with. He continued, "Look how much she likes it. You hear that, baby? You're a whore who likes this a lot. It's your favorite thing in the whole world. You want more of this, or else you wouldn't love it so much. Keep playing with her cunt-hole down there boys while you suck. See how many fingers you can get in this tiny young whore all at once." I really enjoyed those tiny wiggly little fingers prying their way into my cunny, passively fighting for dominate positions, as if they were worked up into a frenzy. It was my first steps into a slutty new world. Once we got home however, play time was over. My daddy was carrying me, and after we entered and the front door was closed and locked, he took me straight to my room and laid me down on my pink bed. My baby pussy was all tingly and I wanted to play some more. After a moment, I thought we were going to take a nap, but I was wrong. He quickly, almost frantically removed my dress, shoes and socks, then his shoes, socks and pants, leaving only the upper half of his suit on, tie and all. I looked at his hard cock poking out from the bottom of his button up shirt, wondering what was going on. Then he reached to my nightstand and squirted some of the hand lotion that mommy had given to me (she always gave me the last bit of lotion in the old bottle when she bought a new one) and squirted it in his hand. He stood over me, jerking off with it as he stared at my little virgin pussy. I watched him as I lay there in missionary position, occasionally glancing into his eyes, and each time he would look back at me and smile. I instinctively smiled back and let my knees fall open more, and feeling tingly, I eventually reached down to my own pleasure zone and began fingering myself. Daddy seemed to like that, so I kept going with it. "Cock hungry little tease- you're practically begging for it, aren't you?" Again, I nodded without understanding. That's when it happened. "You fuckin' whore," he said. He leaned down over my small naked body, opened my puffy pussy mound with his fingers, and aligned his lotion- soggy prick-head with my tiny cunt hole. Once it was peeking in the entrance, he let go of it and gripped his hands around my tiny waist, looking deeply into my eyes. He had a calm, somber look on his face just before giving me a strange smile. Then he drew back slightly at the waist and in a single thrust he slammed into me balls deep, his cock ripping my hymen from its path. I flailed about wildly and screamed in pain, but he just reached in his jacket pocket and shoved my own panties into my mouth. I felt so full that I thought I was going to be split in half. I'm not sure when my brothers actually came in, but I got a sweaty-faint feeling and looked around the room in a daze and saw them looking at us curiously- and a bit worried. Still stuck in me, daddy yanked off the upper part of his suit, and just looked at his sons and smiled. "See how much this cunt-bag loves it. She's screaming for more." Then he leaned into me while he raised my folded knees up by pressing on them with his torso. He didn't stop forcing them up until my knees were braced all the way up near my chin, and all the while I was crying in pain and confusion. Once I was curled up underneath him, my face buried in his lower chest, I felt him setting his knees on the edge of the bed one at a time, and in a flash he furiously plowed back and forth, rapidly sawing at my tight virgin twat. His hard, piston-like thrusts were so lightning fast that I couldn't keep up with them, and I had the sensation that I was actually dreaming. I managed a panty-muffled scream as he held me crushingly tight and hyper-raped me. In truth, his dick was only about six and a half long or so, and I think he only lasted about thirty seconds, but to a five year old, it hurt to the point where I finally passed out. At the time I didn't understand it, of course, but I believe I was having a huge orgasm as I went out from the pain, but I have never been positive. I awoke to him pissing all over me, including my face and semi-open mouth. Without realizing what I was doing, I was drinking the piss as it spewed into my mouth. I choked as he laughed and encouraged my brothers to laugh also. It was really tangy and the splashes stung my tightly closed eyes and the burning pain between my legs distracted and confused me. By the time he finally ran out of urine, I was soaked. I rubbed my face and blinked and rubbed as much of it as I could from my eyes. The first thing I saw was my two brothers, who were ogling at the obscene incestuous rape that had just taken place in front of their young eyes. "You useless bitch," said daddy. "Don't leave a fucking mess like this on my prick. Clean it right now." Then he climbed up over my face and shoved his softening cock in my mouth. I remember the copper taste of my own blood so clearly. He then face-pumped me until he thought it was clean. I was choking again for most of the time, but he didn't seem to care at all. He pulled his semi-erect prick out and lightly slap-patted me on the cheek with his palm several times as he said, "Now that's a gooood little whore. Mommy would be proud of you for that." Then daddy helped me go to the bathroom to get cleaned up and made fun of me for not being able to walk straight, calling me stupid, and clumsy, and stuff. He'd laugh at his own comments and looked to my brothers, encouraging them to laugh as well. He even made me thank him for even bothering to clean me up at all. He said most daddy weren't as nice as he was when they fucked their daughters and that I was a very lucky little whore. ** The next day, daddy yanked us out of school, and began home schooling us. I was raped at least two or three times each day in my sore, abused pussy. Soon, it was much more just a few times a day. I think he had to be on some kind of boner medication to do it as often as he did. It was also so random- the times he did it. Like we had just finished eating dinner and he had us clear the table, and without warning he calmly took out his hard cock and coated it with cooking oil. He grinned wickedly at me, and I lowered my head, knowing what was coming. He took hold of my pretty red sundress I was wearing, and instead of just removing it, he savagely ripped it of off my body. Then he yanked off my white cotton panties, shredding them in the process. My brothers stopped and watched as he lifted me onto the kitchen table and forced my legs apart by grabbing my ankles and raising them far and wide. Dirty dishes clanked and scattered as he mounted me and I knew there was nothing I could do, so I just gritted my teeth and passively laid there. He pried his dick into my hole, burying it inside of me all the way to the hilt with one quick thrust. I screamed out and he grunted at the same time. Grabbing me around my tummy, he lifted me up completely off the table and basically used me to jerk off with- holding me straight out from him. His strong arms pounded me back and forth, flexing his ass with each time he drew me back to him so that it went in balls deep. As always, I could feel him thumping against my cervix, and I whimpered out each time. He did it until he came in me, then he just pulled me of off his cock and dropped me back on the table like a dishrag, nonchalantly telling everyone it was time to do the dishes. He also got into leaning me over things, like the back of the sofa, and taking me from behind when I just happened to be walking by, or had make me pose in doggy style on the coffee table and give it to me hard and fast. It wasn't long before my brothers were doing things to me too, thanks to daddy's instructions. He taught them to rape me, and told us that I liked it, and no matter what, they should fuck me as often as they wanted too- that's what bitches are for. And with his consistent coaxing, it was a lot. I guess that was the real beginning for me. Anyway, now as an adult I think a big part of my problem is that I am addicted not just to sex, but to orgasms as well. It wasn't difficult to answer when you asked me if I actually considered myself a nymphomaniac during our last session, but I guess it's up to you to figure out if it's medical or physiological. Once you know everything, I think you'll agree with me on why I am the way that I am- but you're the psychiatrist. Maybe it is a brain chemical thing- I don't know. It is kind of strange how easily I have orgasms. I can just squeeze my legs together really hard sometimes, and boom. Somehow, I haven't gotten desensitized. In fact, I think that reinforces my extreme need for orgasms. It seems like I can never get enough of them, no matter how many I have, I am never satisfied. As soon as I finish one- I am instantly ready and eager for the next, hopefully more intense then the last- and I do whatever it takes to get me there. It also seems like the more humiliating and degrading the act is- the harder I cum. It is like a gambling addiction- I'm just waiting for the next big one right around the corner. Sometimes it's a big one, sometimes it's not, but I am always uncontrollably lured by it. It is an insatiable hunger. I still say it's entirely my daddy's fault, though. He loved to boast about how he would do things to me while I was still a baby when my mother wasn't around. He told me and my brothers that he used to lick my baby cunt when we were alone, and sometimes when mom was around, he would sneak off with my bottles when I was a baby, and when I got older- my sippy-cups, and mix my drinks with his cum and some of his piss too. He would often jerk off into my milk and use his prick to stir it, and if I was there, he said I would watch him doing it. And since I always drank afterwards, that I must have be a cum-slut from birth He said that he could tell I was cock hungry even back then because I couldn't take my eyes off his prick. He also said he would especially love to do it when my mother wasn't in the room, and feed it to me when she was. She would unknowingly watch as I greedily sucked down my own daddy's juices. He said his favorite thing to do was when he would fool my "dumb ass" into thinking his prick was my bottle, and he would let me nurse it and he would jerk cum straight into my mouth. He told us how he loved the way I would cough and try to spit it out when his surprise semen attack would suddenly burst out into my tiny orifice. He said I would gag at first, but eventually I enjoyed gobbling it down when I finally got use to it. When I was a toddler he would feed me the sweetest and tastiest things in the house and as I would eat or drink them, he would eat me out, or use his finger to wiggle my tiny clit and slit until I shivered in orgasm, maybe licking my asshole while he did it. Daddy meshed "tricks" for "treats", so to speak, into one thing in my still forming mind- I think. It was like giving a puppy doggie biscuits for doing a trick. That is why I blame him the most. He brainwashed all of us. He turned my brothers into rapists, and me into a sex-addicted slut would loved to be raped. I guess I should feel lucky that the food-sex thing didn't backfire and I got fat instead. But then again, I guess daddy would never have let that happen. Even today I am thin and toned. Even my little brother, who is two years younger than me, has been forcing me to do all sorts of things since he was preschooler. He loved to take pornographic pictures of me, or videotaping me- more so then daddy or my older brother, although they all did that here and there. My little brother would stick his finger up in me and take close ups of me getting some cock from the others. I can't count how many times he took a picture of me sucking his little cock. Since he had my daddy and big brother for back up, I had no choice but to submit to his every whim as well. The little turd. I think it got worse after my mother died partially because of the increase in opportunity and partially because they blamed me, or at least make me think they did, for my mother's death. She was driving me to pick up a present because I had been such a good girl when the drunk hit us. All of the guys had stayed home that day, so they weren't to blame. And my mother had a heart-of-gold for trying to reward me, so it wasn't her fault either. And the drunk guy was just like mommy, dad would say- he was just in the wrong place at the wrong time. He was too drunk to know that he shouldn't have been driving, so it wasn't his fault either. I know better now, but back then I bought it all. My dad would say it in front of my brothers a lot, and then they started doing it too. After they said it they would just stare at me until I was looking to the floor with my leaking eyes. After saying things like that would come the worst part. They would imply that she only died because I had been such a good girl, although they would seldom out right said it, but whether they did or not, I could always tell what they meant. They made it look like if I had been a bad girl- a little whore, then she would have never gone to get me a present and therefore never have been killed. Soon, not only was I not afraid to do "bad things"- perverted things, I knew most little girls didn't do, but I would look forward to them because it felt like it would have kept my mom alive. She was killed, and I had not a scratch on me when the ambulance got there, and she was doing it all because I was being so good, so it was my fault. Things got further and further out there as my life continued. For a while, daddy even brought me to a pedophiliac pediatrician, starting just after I had just turned six years old. He coaxed him into doing all sorts of things to me, including fucking my little girl cunny- although it's not like he needed a lot of coaxing to begin with. I loved the attention and really enjoyed getting probed, prodded, humiliated, and fucked by him, but that's a long story. Maybe I'll tell you about that in the next letter. They also taught me how to suck cock back then, and I have to admit, I liked that too. They made me watch child pornography and they would fuck me every time they got the notion to. The first time I can remember watching kiddy porn videos with my dad, he lifted me from my stance and set me on his lap so I was facing the screen. His prick was already wet from the Vaseline which he was openly jerking off with right in front of me, and he forced his cock inside of my tiny pussy. As like many other times, he used my young body as a jerk off enhancer by holding my thin waist and forcing me up and down. His cock seemed so big as it impaled me. At first I struggled and made noise, but he told me if I resisted, or screamed or cried, that meant that he should bounce me harder, so I tried not to. If he especially pounded me and I couldn't help but cry, he'd make fun of me afterwards, calling me a little crybaby and he would put my hair in pigtails and make me suck on a pacifier all day - sometimes even a dildo. Most of the time I would be wearing just my undies- or more often just a tight little T-shirt with nothing covering my lower half. Since daddy or one of the boys would tell me what to wear each day, I had to do it, and I learned to like the feeling of exhibitionism. Whenever my brothers had a friend or two over, I was told ahead of time to walk around nude, or partially nude, or wrapped up in a undersized towel that was little more than a large rag. They made me turn the part where the small towel was tied so that it was V'd open in the front, plainly showing my cunny to all who looked. It was made clear to me that when my family told me to put on some clothes and show some decency, that I should pretend to refuse- no matter what they said. I remember my daddy turning my ass so it faced our company, bending me over, and lifting the towel so he could spank me for being so bad. Eventually, they pretended to have a "we give up on this slut" attitude, and let me have my way. I was also secretly told to sit in front of our guests with my legs lewdly spread open and even masturbate for them, of course my brothers or father were telling me not to the whole time. The boys ended up with a lot of friends who liked to come over, and I was molested many, many times. I'm not sure when, but I started liking the attention and soon took it upon myself to tease them of my own accord. I would sit on the visiting boys laps in near nakedness and feel their boners poking through their pants. The funny thing is, at this point in my life, pretty much all of their friends were getting their rocks off on me in one way or another, but they didn't seem to be aware that everyone else was too. Like, when I went to go pee or take a bath. I guess one of them would make an excuse to leave the room, and since I would conveniently forget to lock the bathroom door, they would sneak in quietly, pull out their hard young cock and jerk off while staring at me. Over time, with me never discouraging it or telling on them, it led to groping and finally face fucking me until they shot off. Then, maybe with a whisper, "Don't tell anyone," or a finger over the lips in a shush symbol, they would leave. I'd usually masturbate right afterwards- the taste of cum still fresh in my mouth. I started really liking it. I remember playing hard to get sometimes just for fun. Like when I was walking down the hall or something and passing by one of my brothers' friend's, and being forced to stop as they'd rub my cunt for as long as they thought they could get away with it unnoticed. I'd latch my hands around their forearms or something, and whisper out a, "No, no, please- don't," but the whole time I'd spread my legs and bend at the knees so they could get better access. I don't know who I thought I was fooling- certainly none of them. During the night, when I slept, I might have a visit from several boys, but only one at a time, and never too close together. It did take a while for them to work up the nerve to actually fuck me in my pussy though. I guess they thought I wouldn't be able to take it, or I'd scream too loud, or something. In the beginning, it was fondling, cocksucking, pussy eating, and fingering. I loved that some of them liked to make out with me too, because my father and brothers didn't do it very often, and I really liked it. At some point the boys figured it all out I guess, and I not only started getting fucked, but I was getting gangbanged for long periods. There wasn't a lot of sleeping at my brothers sleepovers, and I usually had trouble walking the next day. When it was family time, however, there was a more casual atmosphere. I would often be just relaxed, lying in the living room floor, tummy down with my head resting in my little palms, or lying on my back in a relaxed position just watching TV, with no pants on. All would be calm, and suddenly one of my family members would do something to me. Like, when I was resting on my tummy in front of the TV, they would sometimes randomly come over to me and grab my ass cheeks, spread them apart and maybe lick or spit around my asshole, or shove a saliva soaked finger into it. I knew what was probably coming next when that happened. I was going to get fucked in my little bottom- but good. Sometimes after they hammered me and finally came, and once their cock had softened a bit, they might piss up my ass. I was forced to hold it in for a time, and the longer I did, the more aroused I got. And the more I would just whimper like a horny minx and masturbate wanting desperately to get off, but I couldn't let myself cum like that. Experience had taught me that it would spray out of my ass as I hit orgasm, and daddy would make me lick it up. After a time of that lustful torture, I was finally allowed to run to the bathroom and evacuated my urine-soaked bowels, usually cumming as I did. Then we'd all go back to watching TV or whatever, like nothing happened. I didn't mind when my brothers fucked my little ass so much, or gave me a piss-enema, but it sure hurt when my daddy did, with or without lubrication. I still liked it though because I would finger myself at the same time and I would always cum real hard, and when he would get really rough, I would cum even harder. He also would occasionally make me release it into my hand and splash myself down with the anal-cum juice and drink it. Sometimes one of them would have to piss, and they'd make me be the urinal. I would sit or kneel in front of them and they would stand over my face and piss. I'd have to drink it all. Some pee would usually run out of my mouth and down my face or I'd choke on it. They would even change the direction of their piss and I would have to try and catch it. That wasn't always so fun, but I really loved it when they would they would flop me on my back and grab me by my ankles and spread my legs, forcing them up high and wide, on a spontaneous whim- no warning what so ever. They would fuck me really fast and furiously as I just lie there moaning out shamelessly in pleasure, having orgasm after orgasm. Or they may yank me into doggy position and fuck the hell out of me while the others would continue to watch TV, and after it was done, we all acted as if nothing had happened at all. If I was close to an orgasm when they finished with me but hadn't quite made it, I would finish myself off right in front of them. I'd look at their pricks and jam myself hard and fast until I came that much need one last time. Often this would get another one of them horny and I'd get lucky again right afterwards. A lot of the time they would pull a train on me, and after they shot off they would just go back over to where they were sitting before and plop down, but that would have gotten another one of them horny and that one would get off in or on me, ignoring me completely until they got another boner. Sometimes this would go on for hours. I might be taking a nap in bed or on the couch and awaken with a cock being shoved into my mouth and get a rapid face fuck. After cum shot down my throat, whichever one was doing it would just calmly walk away, and I'd finger myself to orgasm and go back to sleep. Often I was getting it in my mouth by one, and getting my cunt or asshole fucked from another. They called it "riding the seesaw." Sometimes as they did me, they would change sexual positions, sometimes they would just use me for a quick fuck-towel bang while the other two basically ignored it, and when that was over, they would then, of course, go straight back to their business. I would occasionally get positioned correctly, and get all three of my holes filled by all three of them at the same time. Eventually, I learned to love it all so much, that I was doing things on my own. At breakfast I might go under the table without being coaxed and suck all of their pricks one at a time, or open a zipper or pajamas snap and openly jerk them off during a TV show- all completely unprompted. If the mood hit- they would say nasty things, and I think that since they were giving me pleasure while they did it, that helped get me even more addicted to being degraded. They would say things like, "Look at this cock pounding fuckhole, Jesus she fucking loves this shit. She's a true cocksucking slut. She's a goddamned little fuck-toy that wants it all the time- stupid cock hound bitch. You want more, or your cunt wouldn't be so fucking wet- you want more, don't you, you slutty whore." Soon I really loved hearing that stuff, although I seldom answered them. It just got me off so much- it was like a bonus. Often I'd be dead asleep, usually exhausted from getting fucked, and I'd wake up to one of their hard dicks squeezing into my tiny pussy again. I would be very out of it, asleep for maybe a couple of hours at a time or so- you know that tiredness that is so bad that you feel hypnotized? If one of them wasn't doing me like that, then another was. I barely slept at all. I think the sleep deprivation did some of the brainwashing on me. I would be so out of it that I'd actually be nearly asleep when they stuck it to me, and the dirty talk that happened when this was going on would get into my head more than other times. Especially daddy's dirty talk. He was always telling me how much I "loved it" and how I always wanted more. But at that point I suppose I was so far gone that it may not have matter much anymore, anyway. I'd feel that hot, stink of daddy's alcohol breath, and his lustful panting as he climbed in bed with me. Then he'd lick me face all over or the occasional tongue roll. "You dumb-ass bitch, you want it, don't you, you prick- loving whore. You're nothing but a sex starved cunt who wants it all the time. You'd be Goddamned worthless if it wasn't for having three fuckholes. Stupid slut!" I think for a good stretch of time there I had forgotten my real name. It was like I had many names now. Every once in a while, my Uncle Mitchell would drive down from Canada to visit us. The first time I met him I was just barely six. My daddy told me that he had a surprise for me later that day, and at about three O'clock he got a very quick phone call, and after he hung up, he had me take off my shorts and panties and tuck my tight yellow tank top shirt up above my nipples. I don't know why he didn't have me get naked all together, but my family did things like that sometimes. I was told to sit back against the arm of the couch facing the door and spread my legs wide. I had to stay like that for a while, until I finally found out what the big surprise was when my uncle and his medium sized mutt, Buster arrived. He hugged my dad and the boys and greeted them and gave them presents, but I was completely ignored, so I didn't move, even when Uncle Mitchell sat right next to me on the couch while talking to my family. That's when Buster discovered me and began to fast lap my bare cunt with a happy wag. I instinctively spread my legs as far apart as I could and lifted my feet up off the couch, giving him full access. My little bottom sort of wiggled with Buster's rough tongue and I moaned steadily. He was licking my cunny and asshole at the same time and I had never felt anything like it. The guys all just laughed and made nasty comments on what a slut I am, and how much I was getting off on it. As the dog began licking my cunny faster, I braced my arms next my sides, threw my head back and opened my mouth- panting rapidly like a bitch in heat. Without shame, I used my finger to wiggle my little girl clitty as they all laughed at me harder. "So, this is your pet whore you were telling me about," Uncle Mitchell said, patting me on the head just as I started to cum. I don't know why, but his humiliating words at just the right moment added to my giant orgasm somehow. I increased my whimpering until I exploded, and as usual, I did nothing to hide the fact. I let my whole body roll with it as I yelled out. With my head jetting back, I rolled my eyes back into my head. The feeling was so long, intense, and even dream-like, that I almost passed out. My daddy shook his head, trying to appear to be in disbelief. "Yeah, maybe you can help us out. This little cum-slut can't get enough cock. We tried to get her to put some clothes on before you got here," he lied, "but she just wants cock so much that we finally just gave up." "I can see that," said my uncle, as his dog continued to lap my little girl twat. "I've been here all of five minutes and this slutty whore has already molested my dog. She must love being a little toy fuckhole." "Oh, this little bitch loves it all right. You don't know how tough it is to keep this living fuck-hole from humping everything that moves. Then, to beat it all, she gets off on the spankings I give her- moaning and groaning and cumming. What am I suppose to do? She'll fuck anything. Hell, I catch her fucking her own toothbrush from time to time." Actually, that part was true. I loved those soft bristles. "Well, if she wasn't a dumb fuck machine, no one would want her around," said my daddy. "Everyone would want her to die. Any bitch is worthless if she can't fuck and suck when a man wants it." "Isn't that the truth," my uncle replied. Looking back, what my dad and uncle said sounded pretty rehearsed, I think. But me, being just a preconditioned little girl, I didn't even stop to think about what he was saying might not be true. "Just look at this dirty little cunt, Mitchell," said daddy as he watch me still enjoying the canine lick-job I was getting. When I reached down to my cunny and opened my mounds wide for the dog, my daddy pointed and said, "We should get one or two dogs of our own just to keep her at bay. Little fucking whore- she loves it. If you aren't feeding that dirty cum-hole cunt of hers some cock, then she'll start humping legs to get off. Shit, with this little slut, I may need to start a kennel." "Hey," my uncle stood and propped his fists up on his hips and suddenly looked angry. "Now she's teased Buster- look, he's red cock is as hard as steel- poor little thing." My uncle- a virtual stranger was shaming me for making his dog horny. After they mumbled something to each other, they helped the dog up so that it could fuck me in missionary, as I was still laying back on the couch. I wrapped my elbows around my knees to hold my shaking legs wider. After his dog (his knot didn't get in) finished pounding my cunt and leapt off, my uncle brazenly reached between my legs and finger-fucked me, and I totally gave into him. He shoved his finger in my mouth and made me taste dog cum a few times, then he'd go back to his fast finger pumping. As I came, he spat in my face several times- and it was one of my best orgasms to date. Soon, I was being fucked by my uncle. He leaned into me with his hard prick out, which was bigger and thicker than my daddy's, and rapidly fucked my tiny body as the dog randomly licked around our pounding genitals. I screamed out with whorish lust, and no shame about it. He went off in me for a squirt or two, but then he stood up and jerked his cum all over my face. Then I was made to lick some of it off, and to finger myself with it until I was just about to cum. Then they had me get on my knees and press my face into the carpet while Buster licked my uncle's cream from my cunt, getting that horny dog all riled up again. That wide, raspy tongue was more than I could bare. I lost track of how many times I came. After a short break, still on my hands and knees, they pressed down on me, arching my lower back. Buster mounted me again, and this time my daddy and uncle forcefully pinned my front half down and my back half up like some kind of wrestling hold, although I don't know why- I wasn't resisting. Although I did love the feeling of restraint and the flushing lust that threw my hormones into a sexual frenzy. Then they lifted me up a bit, talking about what a dog- hungry slut I was. My brothers laughed at me, as my father and uncle each held my arms and thighs out to the sides so I was no longer touching the floor anywhere. I was getting pulverized by that big doggie cock, and yelled out in a mixed painful-pleasure sensation which brought about an orgasm so powerful, that I thought for a moment it might actually kill me. Minutes after I came, Timmy, one of my brothers friends' and our paperboy came to the door to collect, he was invited in and sworn to silence. I had been made to do things with and for him in the past, but this time it was something new- I got fucked by the dog for all of them. Then, still in front of them all, I was tossed so that my top half was set over the butt-cushions of the couch, and my knees were spread out wide on the floor, and got it semi-doggie style, so-to-speak. This time they made sure that Buster locked into me, which hurt and felt good at the same time. Timmy the paperboy, was encouraged to dry fuck my ass with his thin, four inch, eleven year old boner after the dog turned around so we were bottom-to-bottom. The dogs knot was uncomfortable to say the least, but as it jumbled around while I got ass-fucked, I came again. First I had to suck Timmy's cock clean, then after his red canine missile finally pulled out of me, I was forced to suck off Buster as it slowly retracted, his cum still dripping down my thighs. I anxiously wrapped my lips around his big glistening prick and face-pounded him while everyone made comments about my sluttiness again. I loved the taste of the sticky, rust flavored doggie dick. He shot off in my face, chest and down my throat for a while. Boy, dogs cum a lot. Soon I took on both of my brothers too. When they were all through with me I was allowed to take a quick and much needed nap. When I awoke I was ready for more, and so were they. Although my little preteen pussy was sore- like they cared. I really wasn't sure whether I hated it or loved it at times, but later at the very least I accepted it as normal. Daddy would say, "Being a cum-dumpster may be the one and only thing in life that you're good at, slut. You think about pricks and tongues being in you all the time, I know you do 'cause it feels so good to you, you fucking little piece of cunt-meat. You don't feel right without some rigid cock in your holes- if you did, then you'd be completely worthless, and no one would love you anymore. In fact, everyone would hate you. I know I would." I can think of another way he brainwashed me. Once he told me, "This is what your mommy would want you to be like if it hadn't been for her getting killed while getting you a present. Poor dead mommy was a slut and she wanted you to be like her. She only told you that you should sit with your legs closed and not to run around naked because she was hoping that you would do it anyway. And you fell for it, you stupid bitch. You had to be a good girl, didn't you. You should have been getting fucked before that, then you wouldn't have been such a little tease. All mommy ever wanted was for you to be a whore, like her." At the time I fell for such nonsense, and after a while I think maybe I didn't feel right unless I was being abused in this way. Maybe that is why I have enjoyed being a fuck-whore as long as I have lived, even to this day at twenty-three. I am of course, still programmed to like it, as so much of who we are comes from childhood experiences. It is very deeply imbedded. These things went on for the next year, and my sluttiness became deeper ingrained with each experience. Then, after my uncle had left, a strange thing happened a couple of weeks before I turned eight. My daddy and my brothers suddenly stopped fucking with me, and didn't have any sleepovers. I awoke of my own nature sleep schedule, which I never even knew that I had one. I always woke to a cock being shoved in me somewhere, but all of the sudden it was different. I went into the living room to await my morning fuck that must surely come. It did not happen. They were all just lounging there, watching TV, and didn't say a single word to me, or even look at me. I felt sad. Why were they doing this to me? I was so used to being used, that I never even thought about them stopping. I finally sat down on the middle of the floor, facing them in a cross legged style so to better tempt them with my young pussy. They did not take the bait, even after my little girl cunt lips opened up, as if peeking at them in anticipation. What was wrong with me? I eventually started masturbating in the hopes to get them horny, but I still got no response. I turned around in doggie style and poked my ass to them enticingly, and no one said anything. They just watched TV and ignored me completely. I felt like a ghost, and I was afraid to even speak. Things were quiet over the next couple of days, and I could no longer stand it. Why were they doing this to me? I was sick of just masturbating and knew that had to do something. I got so horny that I actually walked straight over to my daddy on his recliner, me stark raving naked, and flung open his robe. My brothers were just veggin' out on the couch beside us, and didn't even glance our way. I was happy to see that daddy was already naked underneath, and I immediately started sucking his cock. I was so drunk with lust that I was almost violent about it. I felt like I had been losing my mind over the past few sex-free days, and it all came pouring out into that blowjob. He tensed up a little, but other than that he didn't acknowledge what I was doing. I did get him rock hard, though. But like my brothers, my daddy still just stared coldly at the TV. Once his prick felt as hard as a led pipe, I climbed on board. Using the arms of the chair, I balanced into a little froggy squat over his dick- me facing him, and worked it into my tight twat. He only leaned over a bit so he could still see the television. Soon, I was riding him as deeply as I could comfortably take it, bouncing up and down with a reservoir of sexual hunger. I cried out loudly as I rode his paternal prick, and came three times, but dad still appeared not to enjoy it. He almost acted as if he didn't even notice at all. But that didn't last too long. Without warning he finally tensed up and grabbed me by my waist, slamming me down balls deep. I squealed out a moaned as he bounced me up and down as fast as he could for a few seconds, which made silly, wet slapping sounds. Finally, some consideration. He pumped his ass up to meet my downward traveling pussy, thrusting like he had something to prove. He kept thwacking against my cervix as he squirted his load inside me. In those few, short seconds, I had a killer double orgasm- or maybe it was one that just lasted twice as long, I really don't know which. But I do know that I was grateful for the little bit of attention I got. Then, he just pulled me off of him, and tossed me nonchalantly to the floor like I was a rag he was finished with. It knocked the breath out of me for a moment, and when I recovered, I looked up at him. He was still watching TV and had closed his robe. Over the next few days, I would ride one of my family members several times a day, desperately trying to get off as many times as I could before they came, and not once during those dark days did they seem to get into it. I'd climb on them and do all of the work until they came, and then got pushed off, even by my little brother, and he was only about six at the time. When I needed satisfaction, I would go from one to the other all day and much of the night, and as much as I could, and except for when they shot off, they treated me like I was invisible. Dad just kept the doors locked so I couldn't get to our dogs, and everyone went on without speaking to me the whole time. This was my life over the next few days, and during that time I felt lonely, and useless. I also played with my cunt endlessly as well as fuck them, but somehow it was no longer satisfying- hell, I'm not sure it even was to begin with. I used my fingers, I used objects, I rubbed up and down on things, but nothing satisfied me like a hard, pounding cock. I was miserable. Then, my eighth birthday arrive, and I had fallen asleep crying the night before. I was so depressed because the one thing I was really good at- getting used, was no longer a part of my life, and I felt worthless and horny. Pleasantly, at dawn, I was raped good morning by all three of them, and they seemed as horny as I was. "Happy birthday, cum-whore," daddy said, and then he pounded my yearning cunt really well. I got it good all day long. Some of my brothers friends even came over sporadically throughout the day and night, and they fucked me too. I felt like it was some grand finale of sex that ended a terrible dry spell. I guess my daddy had told my brothers to ignore me to get me sluttier, or something. If that was it, then it worked. That was a major turning point in my life, I think. I couldn't do without it anymore. That year it became impossible to rape me, because you can't rape the willing- or so I thought. ** On my ninth birthday my daddy told me that I was old enough to start dating as long as he picked the guys. I really wasn't interested in dating, but he seemed insistent, and of course I was afraid to say no. I don't know where he found all these horny teens and adults that came for me over the next few years, but I suspect it was the internet. A couple of days before I was to go on that very first date though, I overheard daddy on the phone. He was telling the person he was talking to, "I don't see how. She's a horny little whore. I mean, you can't rape the willing, can you?" A few seconds later he said that he would come up with something, but it would cost extra. I was so naïve I had no idea that what he could have meant by that at the time. Then on the day I was suppose to go out on my first date, he had found some reason or another to punish me the whole day long, which had become one of his favorite pass times. As a punishment, he made me stick an active vibrator up my asshole and kept me busy doing housework all day like that and completely nude. I even had to stick a feather duster in my cunt hole and dust that way from behind- me bent over. He humiliated me even more than usual that day. Then he got mad because I hadn't cleaned his room yet when he was the one who wouldn't let me get around to it. He even stopped me from doing it at one point after I had already started, just so I could clean the nasty old basement, which no one ever went down into. Then he pulled the feather duster out and made me suck the juicy handle clean. Then he pried his finger up my asshole and used it to push and steer me to the utility closet. "I want this room spotless, fuck-face- you got that?" After a nod, and a "Yes sir, daddy," I did as I was told. When I finished, and he checked out my work, he informed me that I needed to bathe now and get ready for my first date, even though I had plenty of time to do that and still clean his room. "Sluts need extra time to clean out their skanky pussies," he said. After my bath, my brothers started in on me. I had my towel wrapped around me, and they just walked into the bathroom and spread it open and poked and prodded at my prepubescent cunt for a few minutes while I just stood there, dumbly. Then they told me to squat on the bathroom floor and ordered me to masturbate for them. I didn't argue of course. I crouched in froggy style, and my finger shot in and out of my twat-hole with a kind of lustful fury. They were laughing at what a whore I was and I loved it. They made me suck them off while I gave it to myself so good, going from one of their cocks to the other. I didn't even resist a little bit. It wasn't long before my legs started shaking and I leaned my head back and happily came for them. Then they had me bend over the empty bathtub and they lifted my towel and took me from behind. Echoes of ecstasy rang out from me in the tub-shower stall, and I came three more times before they both had shot off. At one point while my oldest brother David was fucking my pussy, Kevin squeezed my hairbrush handle up my tiny asshole. I wanted them to stop so I could get ready for my date, but at the same time I loved every second of it and would have begged them to keep going if they had quit. At one point, daddy even came in wearing his favorite robe fully opened. He smirked as he watched his own children fucking like mad. When his prick hardened and poked out, he began to openly jerk it. He eventually said, "God damn it, you horny cunt," like he had just now walked in on us. "I told you to get ready for the date, and look what you do. You get your poor brothers all horny. Hurry the fuck up and finish them off, you cock hungry whore." "I'm... ugh... sorry, daddy," I chimed. He jerked off for a while longer, and eventually came right up to us and grabbed me by the back of my hair, spraying his cum all over my face. I opened my mouth and attempted to catch as much of it as I could. After that he left without saying another word. Then my brothers made me lie on the cold floor while they took turns pissing on me and making me drink it. I had to bathe all over again. After I was finally all set for my date, daddy "noticed" his room was still a pigsty and reminded me of that I should have gotten around to cleaning it. He had me come into the living room and raise the slutty-short yellow sundress he had told me to wear (it was so short that it looked like something from the late sixties) until it was just over my pre-budding, pointy nipples. Soon my pigtails flipped towards the floor as I followed my daddy's instructions of bending over and putting my ass in the air for my punishment, which forced the hem of my very short dress up to my tailbone. He made me brace my hands on my knees and spread my legs a bit. He pulled my white cotton panties down to my mid-thighs, which was as far as they would go because my legs were partially open. Then right in front of my smug thirteen year old brother, he spanked me till my buttocks was rosy red. Soon my little brother came into the living room, probably to see what all the slapping sounds were about. He laughed and pointed when he saw me, and I shut my eyes and turned my head away in shame. That is my problem. The shame intensified my arousal. I bit my bottom lip as I felt this amazing rush of fiery lust, and the boys kept laughing and making comments about me getting off. Dad just ignored them both. He only concentrated on the hand-paddling my ass was getting, and would sporadically thwack my pussy with the palm of his hand or his fingers, and each time I would jump. He did it every few hits until my young cunt started to get uncontrollably wet. "Look at that, boys! The whore is wet from a spanking!" he shouted. "God, is there any way to punish this little cock-hole of a whore? She gets off on everything. Just look at that shit," he smirked and shook his head as he slapped, like he couldn't understand how I could be this way. I didn't realize at the time, but he knew the moistening of my pussy was completely involuntary, of course I had to admit, I was aroused anyway, whether I liked it or not. And I did. Daddy rubbed my cunt vigorously and I arched my back and moaned out, and he continued to shake his head again like he was disappointed in me. After sighing in mock exasperation, he raised his voice an octave to make it sound like he just couldn't believe what he was seeing. "Fucking goddamned little whore. Look at this shit here boys..." He abruptly wiggled his finger in my tight twat and finger banged me with the rest of his palm open- like he was rapidly spanking me, but finger banging me too. "Can you believe this shit? This bitch really does get off on everything." I moaned out and looked at my brothers, who were just smiling dumbly at the obscene act in front of them, chuckling crude things to each other again. I turned around so that I could see my daddy, and after he looked into my eyes, he continued to speak in a voice that had a what-am-I-going-to-do-with-this-girl overtone while he masturbated me almost savagely fast. "She is wet as hell, boys! This bitch is good for fucking and sucking, and that is it. God, she's getting even wetter now. Listen to this young cunt slurp. It's like its hungry for more. God, she's just begging for it." Daddy loved to make it look like it was me doing it all and he had no control. The truth be told, I was ready to explode now. Exposing myself all day to my family with things my cunt and ass, getting fucked in the bathroom, and now this. "Feel this thing, boys," he said. "Feel this slut's little cunt." Which of course they did. Actually, I was disappointed when daddy stop finger fucking me, but I knew there was more fun to come. I shut my eyes tightly and turned my head to the side again. I couldn't help but get off as both of my brothers fingered me at the same time. I was about to cum again, and I showed it. Then when a small finger pried its way up my asshole, I moaned out loud and bent my legs slightly to give them better access. I was helpless to the pleasure- it was so embarrassing. Then my dad put his finger over my little clitty and wiggled it mercilessly. I screamed out in pleasure, and daddy said, "See how she is? A true whore. The slut loves it. Look at her wanting more. She wants it nonstop." It was then that the doorbell rang. I knew it must be my date Donny, my reflexes got the better of me and I quickly stood up, as my slumped over ass was facing the door. Suddenly my daddy yelled out, "Hey!" He thrust my face straight down to my knees and commanded me to put my palms flat on the carpet. Then he yanked my undies over my feet and handed them to David, my older brother. Then, like side-kicking a soccer ball, daddy booted one of my ankles hard so that my legs slid really wide apart. After stumbling a little, I stood frozen in place, knowing that I had made him mad. "Did I tell you that you could get up, you little tease?! Keep your hands flat on the floor 'til I tell you different! You're going to get it worse now!" he said sternly. "Boys, let him in." Through a space in my bunched up dress over my head, I could see my handsome new boyfriend-to-be enter the living room, and with wide eyes and a dropped jaw, he stopped and stared at my hairless preteen pussy being fully exposed to him. I felt tingles squirm their way through my tummy and twat at the humiliating exposure of my privates to a complete stranger. I was displaying my glistening wet slit-hole to my young, well dressed, dark haired date and it was driving me crazy for an orgasm. He looked to be of about sixteen or seventeen, and was tall and strong looking, like an athlete. This welcoming cunny shot definitely caught him off guard. Then daddy told me to take my hands off of the floor and spread the puffy mounds of my little pussy wide open for the rest of my punishment. I was so horny and my frustration grew with it. Whether I wanted to or not, I loved how much all of these guys, including my despicable brothers, were enjoying the view. They were looking over each other, getting in each other's way, and trying to get better angles to see my twat. I must be really sexy, or they wouldn't like looking at me so much. I was flattered and tried to refrain from smiling. My life was the birthing of a slut, and at twenty-three I still am, thanks to the overactive sexual debauchery daddy made sure I grew up with. "Donny, it's eight o'clock. You're right on time, I'm glad to see you are so responsible." daddy said. "And this horny little fuck-whore isn't ready because she bought herself a little extra punishment. It won't take long; just a quick lesson before your date. Apologies to the nice young man, slut." "I'm sorry," I said sincerely. The boy looked even more shocked as my dad went back to just plain spanking me. I squeaked out as he was whacking me much harder and faster now on my already tender ass and open my tiny pink cunny mound, and I knew all could plainly see my leaking fuckhole. Then without warning daddy fiercely rammed what felt like his middle finger inside me and finger fucked me really, really fast. I shamelessly moaned out as he made my juicy cunt start yet another rapid journey towards yet another mind-blasting orgasm in a matter of mere seconds. Daddy always knew how to make me cum. I think he knew it only added to the humiliations he always made me endure. It only furthered my embarrassment when I realized that in addition to my open grunts and groans, I was returning his thrusts by leaning back into it and going with the bounce. I didn't even know how long I had been doing it before I caught myself. Daddy used his other hand to brace my lower back to keep me from teetering, and quickly finger fucked me so hard that if he had not been holding me in place he would have sent me flying across the floor. I completely gave myself over to the pleasure and squealed out even louder as he rolled his big finger in circles at the very peak of my orgasm. Ignoring the look of shock on my dates face, daddy laughed at me before saying, "You see what we have to put up with here, Donny? It is all the three of us can do to keep this whore satisfied. Shit, it's all we can do to keep her from humping our legs every chance she get. Fucking slut. I almost had to let the dogs in." After I finished cumming, daddy told me to put my panties back on, and he went over to Donny and began whispering something to him, and then they both started speaking back and forth under their breath. I went over to David and he handed me back my panties, and when I lifted my foot to put them back on, he rubbed my wet, hairless cunny slit vigorously. I tried to ignore him and kept trying to put them on, but he was making things very difficult. I finally used his probing arm to balance myself. When I finished, I turned around so I was face daddy and my date. After I straightened out my short dress, I stood quietly and waited for them to finish talking. While I stood there, my big brother lifted the back of my dress and dipped his hands under my undies and fondled my sore ass, and after a very short coaxing he got my little brother Kevin to squeeze his little finger into my tight, moist cunt from behind. He had to hook it up in there since I was standing, and he wiggled it about like a water sprinkler, revving up my sex drive again. I swear that little boy's finger could nail my G-spot every time, whether he meant to or not. Then David started in on my asshole. I tried not to show any emotion, as I was trying not to look like anymore slutty to my date then I already had. And even if I did want them to stop, I was taught by daddy to never speak until spoken to, and that if any one of them, he, my uncle, my brothers, or even a dog, ever wanted me to do anything to them, or they to me, at anytime, day or night, I must do it without protest. I never found out what my punishment would be for not following that rule since I never resisted it. I'd gotten fucked by someone every few hours for most of my childhood, and later on, my teens. Sometimes it seemed like I never got any sleep. In a moment I shut my eyes and let myself slip off into the pleasure, and I was shocked to realize that I was slowly bending over without any coaxing from them. Soon, my lower back was automatically arching, and my ass was turning upwards as my palms braced upon my knees again. Then I slowly bent my knees to give them better access. By now I was raging with lust and made outward whimpering and moaning sounds, with not so much as an attempt at control the reaction of this sexual excitement. Of course, Donny looked over and saw us with bug-eyes and a gaping jaw right away, but daddy didn't- not at my sexual sounds or even just out of curiosity to see what my date was gawking at. He just kept on talking to him- asking if he was listening. I could see the boy's cock swollen in his pants and it made me happy that I was turning him on so. Soon, my oldest brother lifted my skirt up over my waist and entered me from behind. I squealed out more vividly as his young cock delved into the pink tunnel of my aroused preteen twat. The moment he pried into me, he started pounding me really hard, and leaned backside into him without hesitation, fucking him back at full speed while Kevin reached around and played with my little clitty. I was going ape-shit and there was no way daddy could have not plainly heard it. "Donny," said my daddy, "are you listening to me?" That's when my dad finally turned around and saw what David and Kevin were doing, he acted surprised and got cross with me and said, "Shit, you fucking cunt-slut, I know you're just a horny ass bitch in heat, but Jesus! Your own brothers too? I can't believe you were getting off on them like that. You didn't even try to stop them. Next you'll want us all to gangbang you. Un-bel-iev- able!" Everyone laughed- including Donny, and daddy kept on making his lewd comments, the whole while my thirteen year old brother kept fucking me and I kept moaning, squealing and mewing, even making eye contact with dad and Donny through my unashamed, half-closed eyes. It was as exhilarating as it was humiliating. I was pleasure-yelping and tilting my head occasionally to look gratefully at my incestuous rapist, and made no attempt to hide how much I loved getting fucked. Daddy would pause and watch- shaking his head, and then he'd start with some more verbal degradation about how much of a cock-hound I was. He sure wanted me to look like the biggest-little whore ever, and my sluttiness was only helping him to prove it. Once my big brother had squirted, he ordered me drop to my knees to suck off my little brother- since I got him horny too. After I swallowed my brother's juices, daddy made me go in the other room so he could talk to me in private. I remember how my knees were shaking and my pussy was wet the entire time. He told me that I had to do whatever Donny wanted, as he was the man and I was just a stupid whore. But- I was not to fuck him no matter what. I could let him feel me up, and eat my cunny if he wanted, and I had to suck him off if he suggested or even hinted at it, but I was NOT to fuck him under any circumstance. He told me that I had to wait for the second date for that. He said, "I know you're just a dumb fuckhole, and all you want is cock, but we want Donny coming back for more. If you are too easy he might not want you next week. I don't want any excuses, bitch. Do you understand? No fucking." "Yes sir, daddy," I promised. "And clean out your brother's cum. God. You think that boy wants to taste his cum if he eats you?" Then daddy reached down and rolled his finger in my twat, scooping out David's cum and shoved it in my mouth, ordering me to swallow it all. Then I was ready for my date. It wasn't long before Donny walked me out to his corvette and even opened the door for me. He was so polite our whole date and I was becoming comfortable, despite my pre-date humiliation. He took me to the park and picked me a flower, and we chatted like we were old friends, expect for him constantly staring at my body and trying to discretely look up my short dress. I kept looking at his prick through his pants too, and it was hard nearly the whole time. After a while, he said he had to take me home, but we could take a shortcut he knew. The shortcut was an old dirt road which he soon pulled off of. There was nothing but woods around us, and it was silent except for the crickets singing a soothing tune. It was so peaceful and I felt so relaxed. Soon we were making out. He almost instantly slipped his tongue in my mouth as he placed one of his hands on my knee. Then he moved his hand up it until my dress was up to my waist. I did nothing but return the French kissing. Soon he slipped past my panties and was fingering me, which was easy for him because I was already wet from the kissing and the anticipation of his approaching hand. He took his cock out and I went down on him the very second I saw it freed from his pants. I must have looked like a starving dog. I savagely licked the bottom vein that runs up and down the length of his seven inch shaft for a time. It was about as long as my daddy's, but thicker, but I managed to work it with no problem. After that I wrapped my lips around his prick, I engulfed it and bobbed my head up and down while my tiny hand jerked him in unison with my mouth. I took in almost all of it and I rolled my tongue around it like my daddy had taught me. Fuck, it was making me so horny. I curled up, knees near my chest and propped my hard little nine year old ass just as high in the air as I could get it, hoping he would take the hint. I spread my knees out wider and rolled ass like I was hunching the air while I sucked his prick on an almost primal, savage level. Still nothing. I tried to think of some way to get him to graciously satisfy my horny, aching cunt. My back half was basically in doggie position, with the short dress hem ridden up passed my waist and I was just offset of the gearshift. I thought that maybe he didn't notice my display and I wiggled-wagged my ass from side- to-side, trying my best to make it look subconscious. I needed something in there. A tongue, a finger- whatever. I couldn't stand it anymore and without thinking, I mewed out a muffled, desperate cry- like a cat in heat, and reached into my panties to rapidly finger my whore- slit. Donny was moaning out and seemed to be enjoying the blowjob, but he only let me do it for a few more minutes. He stopped me and said he didn't want to cum before he fucked me. By the time he was finishing telling me that, he had already thrust his finger in my wet pussy and pumped it roughly, like a speedy piston. In between whimpers, I stammered out that I wasn't allowed to fuck him until our second date. My daddy told me so. But he acted like he didn't even hear me and yanked my dress off. It happened so fast I don't think that I even knew what he was doing until he was finished. As he tugged at my panties I grabbed them and whined out a "no, please don't fuck me." He didn't care. In fact I think it made him more excited. He forcefully yanked at them until he shredded them off of me completely. He was extremely violent about it, and I had to admit, I was enflamed with lust, and wanted him to fuck me into unconsciousness, but I still tried to resist. "No, no... please... my daddy told me no, I promised him I wouldn't, please..." I begged as I tried to cover my little, preteen pussy. "I don't give a fuck what you promised. That was your mistake, slut." Then he thwacked my hands out of the way. "I paid good money for this date, and I'm gonna bury my cock in you, one way or another. I don't date teases." As the shock of my dad whoring me out was hitting me, Donny lifted me up and aggressively plowed my back onto the passenger door, successfully pinning me by the throat. He wasn't choking me exactly, but if I leaned my head in any direction I would have been choking myself. Then he used his shoulder to mash my left leg up and high, trapping it against the back of the seat. I had no leverage and couldn't have successfully fought him off even if I had tried. Then he grabbed the ankle of my other leg with his free hand and spread it up all the way to my side, holding it so that my knee was actually touching my shoulder area. My glistening nine year old cunny couldn't get much more exposed than that. I feebly swatted at his chest and arms, but it was like smacking at a tree. He wasn't budging. My cunny was spread wide open for him, despite my feeble resistance. "Hold still you whore," he commanded. I didn't stop fighting him until he shoved his saliva soaked prick in my wet little girl pussy. My head reared back and I exploded with pleasure. I yelled out with each fierce pump he made. His thrusts were very fast, and almost angry, but that only made it feel better and I made no attempts to hide it at this point. Then I felt it. The upcoming event. My pussy felt warmer, and those familiar addictive tingles of ecstasy ripped through me like a bursting dam. He squeezing my throat tighter, cutting of about half of my oxygen. I went nuts- before I knew it I was reaching down to brazenly play with my clit, rapidly whisking my fingers over it back and forth and the surreal explosion made my ears ring and sent me to the very edge of fainting. He kept fucking me in and out of oblivious pleasure for a while, and then he opened the door on my side. I remember noticing how steamed up the windows were. It funny how sometimes you remember such small details so clearly during times like that. I felt so helpless as he carried my small, naked body- still impaled to his rock hard dick, and slammed me down on the hood of his car. He fucked me there for a while in not only missionary position, but he turned me over into doggie style as well. And I was giving it as good as I got it. I leaned back into each thrust he made and he made fun of me for it, calling me his fuck-rag for obviously loving it so much, and fucking him back with such enthusiasm. He grabbed me by my pigtails like handlebars, and that really sent me flying. After my fourth or fifth orgasm I started coming to my senses again, and remembered that I was suppose to not fuck him. The very first second he let go of my pigtails I tried to scurry across the hood on my hands and knees and get away, but Donny wasn't having any of that. He yanked me back roughly by my hipless waist the very moment I tried to make a break for it, and when he pulled me back, his cock-tip bull's- eyed my tight asshole. It didn't enter from that first hit, but it gave him the idea I think. He squeezed his juice coated cock into my tiny poop-hole and I screamed out in pleasure/pain so loudly, that the crickets paused and a flock of night birds stirred far off in the woods. He gripped me by my shoulders and slammed me as hard as he could. I screamed out- mostly in pain, but this only made him pump me harder. He even grabbed me by my waist and lifted me completely off the car and held me that way as he pumped. Then he grappled me around my flat chest and my tummy, holding me upright in the cool night air. He angled my tiny body so that I was tilted slightly upwards, and as he pounded me up, gravity would slam me back down up to his hilt. It hurt so bad, but being raped (something I had not experienced since I had become a willing slut) by this young stud also made me cum without anything in my cunt at all. Just his hard teen-dick pounding my ass did the trick. Donny shot off after a few seconds of doing that, and then he slowed to a halt, he just stood there panting and let his dick softened. Then after it plopped out, he threw me to the ground, and uncorked fluids pour out of my holes. He called me some more nasty names and then pissed all over me. My hair, my face, my chest, and my stomach were soaked with urine like I had just showered in it. He even told me to open up "those little lips" and stick my tongue out. I was afraid to say no, so when I did, he pissed directly in my mouth, calling me his little toilet- bitch. Some of the piss dribbled out of the corners of my mouth, but I was forced to drink most of it. Then he made me lick his nasty ass-cock clean. I felt so dirty and lewd that I could have really gone for another orgasm or two, so I began masturbating, determined to cum again. "Jesus-fucking-Christ, I've never seen a whore like you before!" he exclaimed. "I guess you can rape the willing. Goddamn fucking cum-slut." He sounded like my daddy. When he was through with me, Donny drove slowly even though his car clock said we were close to being late. He even calmly stopped to get a drink from a soda machine at an old, run down country store. That was when I realized I was being set up again. After he drank it all slowly, he got back in the car and drove away. He didn't even offer me any. In fact, all he did was ignore me or talk to himself about what a slut I am. After I returned home from my first date, Donny said, "I'll definitely be seeing you again, fuck-hole. I think I'll bring my little brother next time." Then tongued me and basically booted me out of his car and sped off. I could barely walk to the front door, as my asshole was so sore. Daddy and my brothers were waiting for me inside on the couch, watching porno, of course. My dad stood up wearing only his favorite red robe, which was partially open in the front and fully exposed his thick, six inch, semi-hard dong. My brothers stood up right after he did and my daddy flashed a glance at them before putting his hands on his hips and dropping his eyebrows at me, which now matched his scowling face. It kind of seemed fake somehow, even at the time I noticed. I closed the door and he sharply shouted, "So, you're late, bitch. I might of known. I let you have some freedom and this is how you repay me! I swear, you're only good for busting a nut in, and that it." He shook his head at me with a tongue clicking- tisk- tisk sound. He kept the anger rolling. "And you smell like piss too. What is Donny going to think of a skanky whore that smells so badly. I told you to use perfume, you dumb bitch. Why are you so late!" I tried to explain to him that it was Donny's fault but he wouldn't let me get more than a few words out before he'd start shaming me again. My brothers just stood there, smirking with their arms crossed. God, I think I hated them at that moment more than ever before. Those brats were so smug I could have hit them. I hated it worse that I wanted them to fuck me. "I don't want to hear your bullshit," my dad said. "Did you fuck that boy? Is that why you're so late?" "Daddy," I pleaded, "He wouldn't take no for an answer. He raped me." It was at that point that I realized my daddy probably told him that when I told him no like he told me to, that he should just fuck me anyway. I thought about the phone call I had overheard and realized it must have been Donny, and he said he wanted to rape me all along and this was the only dad could set it up. He knew I was a slut and therefore always willing, so how could he get me raped? The more I tried to explain that I was raped, the more angry daddy got, and the more his already hard cock seemed to bulge even more. I remember feeling like it was somehow staring me down. "He raped you? Bull-fucking-shit. You can't rape the willing," he shouted. He used his devious brain to have his cake and eat it too. He made me into his ready, willing and eager slut, while at the same time he proved that you actually can rape the willing. My daddy may be an asshole, but he sure isn't stupid. "I tried to fight him off," I said to daddy. "Yeah sure, you probably begged him for it, knowing what a slut-whore you are. You even seduced your brothers before you left, and right in front of your date. God, you're such a little girl whore. Did this pussy..." he said as he grabbed it under my dress, "...get some cock tonight?" I gave a startled jump when he latched on to it. I couldn't even answer him as he now started rubbing my already wet cunny vigorously. I instinctively grasped my hands around his forearms and rolled my eyes upward at the pleasure. After a moment I realized that not only wasn't I fighting his hand rubbing, but I was actually helping by moving with him. I even gradually started leading the rubdown. I could never denied being a little slut. "You horny little fuckhole. I know you got fucked. Look at her boys, she's wanting it right now. Your goddamned whore of a sister can't stand not getting fucked for five goddamned minutes. We are going to find out right now if you got any cock or not. Lie down on that couch and spread those slutty little legs of yours." I obeyed, realizing that there was no right answer. I flopped down and hiked my legs high and wide, something have always done a lot of. I held back a peeking smile, knowing what I was probably about to get. I loved incestuous gangbangs. Daddy shook his head and pointing, he told me that the evidence was right there. I had a slick, red looking pussy that had been freshly fucked and I had forgotten my panties. "I didn't forget them, daddy. He ripped..." "Shut the fuck up! Did I ask you a question? I bet this cunt had been teasing that poor boy all night. Raped you my ass. Boys, go and find out for sure if your slut of a sister has been fucked," he said. Both of my brothers opened my cunt lips and prodded its well-fucked passageway. I turned my head to the side and closed my eyes. This was great for humiliation. I moaned out and spread my legs wider. The boys were poking fun of my moistening cunt, which was now making uncontrollable slurping sounds as they both fingered me at once. It went like that until David discovered some cum oozing out my anus. "Look daddy," he said as he pulled a semen slimed finger out. "He came in this stupid twats asshole." "I told you not to fuck him, and ass-fucking is still fucking, bitch. Now you are going to pay," he said. I was mortified, but it got even worse when daddy made me suck it off of my brother's cum-coated finger. He told me that this was all my fault, and now that I had messed up my brother's finger I will clean it off. This got me horny again. It is okay, though. I had more orgasms that followed that night- nearly all night as my family pulled a train on me. My daddy was the first. He told the boys to move and after opening his robe, he leaned himself over me as I just laid there, ready for my just desserts. My pussy tingled in expectation of his thickening cock jabbing its way into my awaiting "slut-slot", as daddy sometimes called it. He stopped and laughed at my obvious eagerness for another fucking. He teased me by letting it tap about the entranceway and made it slide up and down my cunt until I was dripping with dewy anticipation. I couldn't help but slip out a hushed, little girl whine of frustration, "Daaaddy..." "What?" he said. "Do you want some of daddy's cock?" Actually at this point, any cock would have done, but I didn't want to tell him that. "Y... no," I replied as I looked away to the side, playing along. "Yes you do. You're a horny little girl slut and you want some cock to fuck your dirty little cunt. There is nothing wrong with that. A slut is what you are, and a slut knows the only thing she wants is cock. Look at me!" I looked back at him, trying to not to look eager. I was not getting addicted to being raped- or least playing I was getting raped. I was hoping daddy picked up on that and would play it with me, but he loved to humiliate his slutty little girl much more. "Tell me you want daddy's cock in you. Do it or not only don't you get a good fucking from any of us, I'll tie your hands up so you can't even twiddle yourself at all tonight. Maybe even the next few days." "No daddy! Please!" I shouted desperately. "Don't do that!" "Then say it then!" That last threat made me cave. "I... p-please daddy. I want to get... I mean... I want your cock. Please." I guess I would have to wait until my next pseudo date until I could be raped again. "I don't believe you," he said, and started to pull away. "Boys, get the rope. This little whore sister of yours isn't going to get to cum for two weeks- mm, better make it three." That scared the shit out of me. "Oh no! Oh please daddy, don't. I want your big prick in me. Please, oh please fuck me daddy! Please give me my daddy-cock. No one can fuck me like you! Please, I need it now!" I quickly wrapped my short, slender legs as far around his ass as I could manage and continued to beg for his dick. I almost cried in the process out of sheer sexual frustration. He dragged it on for a while longer, all the while my brothers just laughed and waited their turns. I hadn't noticed until they laughed that at some point they'd undressed and stood naked, toying with their young, hard dicks. Daddy shoved his prick in me with enough force to slam the top of my head against the back of the couch. My neck was tilted in a very uncomfortable position, but he didn't give a damn, and neither did I. He just kept pounding me, and I loved it. I squealed and rocked my little bottom in timing with his pumping, and my little brother Kevin came over to me and started playing with my tit-less nipples pinched and twisted my clitty. Then David came over from behind the couch and grabbed my arms. Even as young as he was, his hands seemed to dwarf my tiny wrists, and he muscled my arms apart and braced me in place, as he yelled, "Yeah! Fuck the bitch, dad!" He didn't have to hold me like that. It's not like I was resisting, but that seemed to be something David especially liked doing. And I think I did too. I came several times while daddy was building up to his orgasm. When little Kevin leaned over and managed to bite one nipples while pinching the other one at the same time, I came really hard. I was dying to fiddle with my clit in conjunction with Kevin. I would have too, if David hadn't been holding my arms in place. He had them spread at about ear level and they were forced to bend at the elbows, so my arms were pinned out in a semi-U-shape. I struggled to free myself so I could masturbate my clitty, but David hands were clamped around my wrists like iron shackles. He probably thought I was trying to free myself for some other stupid reason. There is no way though, I was finally getting some good cock going on. Daddy's was my favorite since it was the biggest, and he knew how to use it better than my brothers. At least I could somewhat play rape from the struggling. When dad finally shot off, he pulled out and jerked it all over my face and chest. I opened my mouth, as I had been trained to do, and caught as much cum as I could. Then he made me lay on my side and raise one leg, so the boys could have a go at me. David fucked my ass while I sucked off my little brother's tiny peter. They even tied me down over the pillow butt-cushion of the recliner chair, so I was in a Z. My ass was propped out whether I liked it or not. They used daddy's soft robe belt to cuff my hands outwardly, so that I was hugging around the lower back of the chair. Then they let our dogs in. They went straight for my cunt, lapping insanely. Daddy made my brothers jerk the dogs off until they got to dancing a hunch in the air. That is when they really went off on me. I got fucked by both dogs- I got knotted with them too. One of them even knotted with my asshole. Then they just left me tied up for most of the night, while they went to bed. They also left the dogs in all night, and I was getting it good for hours. When I had to pee, they would lap it all up as it streamed out. I'm just lucky I didn't have to poop that night. In the morning, daddy came in and untied me- it was about five in the morning then. I went to bed exhausted. I spent the rest of the night wavering in and out of a lusty sleep, stirring with erotica, and fingering myself to orgasm. I was hoping that someone would come in a bang me again, but no one did. I did my best with what I had to work with and finally fell asleep. I awoke to a cock in my face. When I looked up, I saw my uncle Mitchell's face grinning back at me. He had three wagging male dogs with him. One was Buster and the other two I had never seen before and I knew what was coming next, even before he spoke to me. "Good morning slut. I have some morning juice for you. Plus I want you to met Jessup and Jinx, my new dogs, and you already know Buster. You can suck us all off. Then we're going to get some of that little pussy of yours, and maybe that asshole too. Hurry up, because you dad is going to let your dogs back in after they finish eating. I heard about your punishment. We've got a long morning planned for you." I rubbed my sleepy eyes and opened my mouth an accepted the inevitable. After I got my Canadian goosing that morning, I thought about my date and couldn't wait for daddy to set up my next one. I remember thinking to myself that maybe I'd be late coming home then too. Conveniently I was. I just love a good family punishment. No one can say my childhood wasn't a busy one. I was never allowed to move out on my own, but I was allowed to use a computer under the guise of staying horny with porn. When I was alone, I also used it to educate myself over the years. I had to keep it a secret though or they might take it away from me. It a miracle I can get away to see you in therapy, but luckily I've managed to convince daddy that it helps me to be a better slut. My family sure has trained me well. They made me a slave to the pleasures of fucking. I may have hated them and loved them at the same time, but at least no matter what, they kept me sexually satisfied. Well, Dr Shaw, I hope that this has been useful to you. I'll see you again at 3:00 PM, this Friday, I guess. Oh, and I'm off my period if you want to fuck me again in our upcoming session. I'm just sorry that you are so squeamish about fucking girls on the rag. You shouldn't be so snobbish. I need satisfaction, whether I'm on my period or not. I don't want to have to look for a new psychiatrist. You have such a big cock. It is hard to believe it's our seventh session already. Maybe this time we could talk while we fuck and save time. Sorry, but I have to go now. My daddy just called and said that he and my brothers are coming home. It seems as if my Uncle is back in town again and I'm sure he has a pack of dogs with him. I think I'll pretend to try and get away from them when they get here again this time. I can get a rough gang rape out of the deal. I'll let you know what happens. I'm lucky that with all the abuse my pussy has had over the years, that am still fertile- or at least I still have my period. These next few months should be interesting because of that, too. Naturally my daddy was plastered drunk when he called a few minutes ago, so I'm not sure I heard him right, but I think that he told me if I haven't already taken my birth control pill today- not to. If that's what he said, then I guess I know what he has in store for me next. Maybe I'll have a little slut or rapist of my own to play within a few months. I'm sure a baby would be welcome in this family. Sincerely, Well, I'm not going to sign my name. You know who I am, and I know you said you will keep this letter only in my private records, but I've learned to be distrustful of men- no offence. It wouldn't surprise me if one day I saw this letter on the internet. THE END Archivist note: Although this story is described as part one, no email address was provided by the author, so if part two is not forthcoming, please don't write us asking for it. Thank you. Author's Notes: READ THIS PART, IT COULD SAVE LIVES - This is a vivid and sad story on how the cruelty of physical, mental and sexual abuse alters the brain, leaving the person hollowed out and in great need to recover who they are. And how when it is done at a young enough age, it may reestablish who they are by destroying who they might be. When it happens to an adult it is difficult enough to deal with, but with a child it is a total destruction of a personality; a very soul that will never be. I know that many don't understand this, but these type of stories may inflict many types of emotions, and that is very therapeutic for some; I shall explain more on that later. The following story is for FANTASY only. I use writing to stimulate a numbing feeling concerning my memories about when I was raped. If you are one who has aggressive tendencies concerning abuse, please use this and other stories as an outlet whether you have been abused or if you have urges, but only if it works that way for you, as I hope it does. If it does not then PLEASE THINK! YOU CAN NOT EVER IMAGINE THE DAMAGE YOU CAN DO BY REAL LIFE ABUSE. Take it from me, I know. It never completely goes away. The best you can hope for is to deal with it. Except for a few experimentations, I usually write either in third person, or from the victim's point of view. I try and make it as vivid and visual as I can because the better I write it, or the better it is written when I read a sexual story, the more it becomes like the concept of taking an aspirin for a headache. In symbolic form it makes me relive, without reliving- over stimulation causes a numbing effect. It desensitizes me by making it symbolic and the true events, also storied in the abstract world of the mind, I have found can jumbled around under certain situations. Here in the written world, where I as the reader or writer am the one who controls things. Some things represent actual events in symbolic disguise, some do not because I had to fill it the in between stuff so it would make sense. I had a certain innocence when the rape took place in my life, although it was not in my childhood, and even during the assault, I was seeing my childhood, and innocent sexual games I had played. This is deep, mental symbolism that happened for a reason. Although at the time I didn't know, but I was subconsciously seeking out the return of my innocence, my trust- even as it was being violated so cruelly. Now, that same symbolism helps in my healing. I DO NOT IN ANY WAY support ANY harmful acts ESPECIALLY on a child- sexual or not. The real world is not as it should be, but in the text world, the world of visualizing, and even the cyber sex world, are at our command. And that equals control, which equals healing. It works like dreams do. Think of how many times you have dreamed of something that not only wouldn't you ever want to actually happen, but would be horrified by it. When that happens, it is a defense mechanism we have so that we may work out more difficult issues through our subconscious mind- it is not a declaration of desire. I have reported harmful sites so they would be shut down. Anime is fine, stories are fine, fantasies are fine if they are for healing or preventative reasons. Art is a powerful tool. This is NOT the same as real life. Please do NOT put anyone else through what I went through, again-ESPECIALLY TO A CHILD. You will take the sweet little light right out of their innocent eyes forever. When it happened to me as an adult, I already had experience in life and knew who I was, and in one horrific moment, I could never be the same again. But at least I had my previous time in life to help me understand things. I had experience, knowledge, and memories to cling to, and to warm the blistering cold of the water because of it. I eventually learned ways to adapt and I finally put the person I became after the rape in some kind of order. Most adults know the horrors that people can do, so it is not as much of a shock as it is to a child. Their world is a cottony soft universe of things yet to be learned. I could finally bring myself together, but that is NOTHING compared to a child being tormented. Since a child does not yet know who he or she is, they have also not yet found their full identity- no question about that, so how can they figure out who they are now (after the abuse) and cope with it. They do not even have their original selves together yet, so how could they? Again, let me stress, I do NOT BY ANY MEANS condone this kind of behavior in real life on anyone, anywhere, in any way, at any time. Please USE THESE TYPES OF STORIES LIKE I DO; TO NUMB YOURSELF TO WHATEVER ABUSE YOU HAVE SUFFERED, OR IF YOU HAVE HARMFUL URGES, SEEK PROFESSIONAL HELP (doctor/patient privilege does apply and BY LAW they cannot and will not tell anyone anything about you) BUT IF SOMEHOW THESE KIND OF STORIES MAKE YOU WORSE THEN PLEASE DO NOT READ THEM! IF THEY HELP YOU AS A SAFE OUTLET, THEN PLEASE USE THEM. REALIZE THE VICTIMS PAIN AND MANIPULATED MINDS THROUGH THESE STORIES. DO WHATEVER IT TAKES, BUT PLEASE DO NOT MAKE ANY MORE HUMAN BEINGS GO THROUGH WHAT I DID, OR SOMETHING EVEN WORSE. THERE IS NOTHING THAT IS WORTH DESTROYING SOMETHING AS BEAUTIFUL AS A SPIRIT. ESPECIALLY THE NEWLY AWAKENING SPIRIT OF A CHILD. It is like Steppenwolf said: FANTASY will set you free! ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ This story was written as an adult fantasy. The author does not condone the described behavior in real life. ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ Kristen's collection - Directory 68